Monday, July 28, 2008

Hidup Memang Tak Senang, Tapi Tak Juga Susah


Hmmm...
every entry should meant something,
but mine just a very minor and sometime very stupid,
but at the end of a day,
it's depend to the reader,
whether the entry is meaningful or not...

As for today,
I would say this entry is a reminder for me,
and for all the reader,
which include those who discover this blog by chance...

Saya ni tak lah sebaik mana,
tapi bila seseorang itu memerlukan nasihat dan pendapat,
saya rasa,
saya patut menunaikan hak mereka...

Sebagai seorang manusia,
Kita memang tidak pernah SEPI dari melakukan kesilapan,
dan hampir semua kesalahan itu,
kita lakukan dgn sengaja.

Kita sedar apa yg kita lakukan itu adalah salah,
dan kita juga tahu,
hukum melakukan kesalahan itu,
Tapi kita masih melakukannya.

Dan setiap kali melakukannya,
perasaan kesal pasti menyusul,
bersama azam tidak mahu melakukannya lagi,
namun,
manusia sering kali tewas dgn nafsu dan hasutan syaitan,
dan ini menyebabkan kita melakukan kesalahan yang sama,
berulang kali,
dan lengkaplah satu kitaran dosa.

Tiada nasihat lain yg dapat saya beri,
selain bertaubat kepadaNya.
Dan kita haruslah kuat,
dan yakin kepada diri sendiri,
bahawa kita boleh berubah.

Kepada yang berkenaan,
cubalah renungkan kesalahan yg telah kamu lakukan,
mungkin pada mata mereka di barat,
ianya normal,
dan sudah menjadi kebiasaan remaja zaman sekarang,
namun ianya sama sekali bertentangan dgn Islam dan budaya hidup kita,
dan saya pasti anda tahu semua itu.
Apa yg saya boleh katakan di sini,
'take it slowly'
Dan bertindaklah sebaik mungkin,
menggunakan akal,
supaya maruah diri yg tercalar tidak tercemar,
dan cubalah hentikan kesilapan itu.

Saya mengaku,
memang sukar untuk melawan nafsu,
tapi cuba bayangkan anda berada di tempat saya,
terpaksa berlawan dgn nafsu setiap saat setiap detik
SETIAP KALI mata terpandang,
pasti nafsu membisikkan sesuatu,
dan pada masa itulah jiwa bergelora,
fikiran tak menentu,
dan akal sering kalah,
namun,
saya terpaksa menguatkan diri,
dan kuatkan diri.

Saya bukanlah contoh yg baik,
tapi kadang2,
manusia suka belajar daripada contoh yg tak baik!

Harap,
apa yg cuba disampaikan,
dapat diterima oleh semua pembaca...

Sunday, July 27, 2008

Nak Update Jugak...


saya berada di KL dah,
and for sure,
saya tak puas berada di JB,
tak puas,
and rasanya nak balik semula,
berada di JB,
seolah-olah boleh melupakan apa yg ada di KL,
the distance keep me away from my life in KL...
huhu...

tak tahu nak tulis apa sebenarnya,
yg sebenarnya banyak nak tulis,
but i think i should keep it to my self,
huhu
but anyway,
saya dah update!
busy,busy,
well at least my mind is busy!
huhu...
banyaknya huhu..
huhu...

Thursday, July 24, 2008

Bila Aku Menyampah...


BILA AKU MENYAMPAH...
MEMANG SANGATLAH MENYAMPAH...
DAN MACAM SEKARANG NI...
MEMANG TENGAH MENYAMPAH...
KALO TAK NAK MASUK, JGN BUKAK PINTU...
KALO TAK NAK MAKAN, JGN MASAK...
KALO TAK NAK BASAH, JGN MANDI...
KALO TAK NAK CERITA, JGN BUKAK CERITA!!!!!

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

can you simply say something is waste of time just because you don't like it?


i'm sorry if the title is too long...
but seriously,
that's what i'm going to mention in this entry...

when i was in high school,
i never ever like football,
and even until now,
but still i can watch it for few minutes,
but at that time,
i always thought that it's really waste off time playing football,
chase a ball among 11 other players,
and sometime,
the players do fight with one and another...
and for me,
that is really waste of my time.

i used to play games,
computer games especially,
but i grow up,
i played less and less game,
and up to one point,
i think,
by playing games,
i waste my precious time,
and sometimes
i just can't imagine,
how people enjoy playing games,
computer games, play station, wii,
and sit in front of the tv/pc for hours,
doing nothing than playing games...
well, if it for about an hour, i still can accept,
but more than that,
seriously waste of time...

then suddenly it's occurred to me that,
is it fair to say something is waste of a time,
just because u don't like it,
or just because u don't enjoy doing it?

well,
seriously i don't know whether it's fair or not,
but my opinion is that,
if u don't like something,
but u see other people are enjoy doing it,
just leave them alone,
and don't try to 'hasut' other people to hate that things,
and don't even criticize people just because they like stuff that you aren't...
because not everyone is this world,
like every single little thing that you do,
so, just shut your mouth!


Monday, July 21, 2008

Petani Moden Yg 'Vogue'

Saya lah tu!
petani moden yg vogue, and of course Naguib sekali
huhuhu.....
sekarang ni tgh geram
sebab printer kat imu ni gila
printer sgt lembab
dah lah Q yg sgt panjang
kalah Q nak beli tiket utk midnite kat pavillion tahu!
nak guna taktik aidil tak tau nak call sapa kan,
gerammmmmm betul!
Anyway,
back to our Happy story...
as bee mentioned in previous entry that i'll be going to malacca to Naguib's hometown
(tapi Naguib org KayEel, mcm mana ni!)
so, saturday tu
bangun agak lambat dan tak nak bangun sebenarnya,
tapi kena lah bangun buat2nya tak der tiket ke melaka,
mati mak kena sumpah dgn mak ayam tu....
sampai pudu around pkl 9.30 tu,
apalah ticket hunt lah kan,
and terus ke counter transnasional, then ke kkkl
and dua2 bas ni tiket pkl 11.30..
mati berjanggut lah Mak tunggu kan!
so, naguib kata try DElima and Alhamdulillah ada tiket pkl 10.30am, terus beli...
and stop kat Alor Gajah, and Naguib and his Mom fetched me there...
Sampai jah, terus mereka bawa iols pergi lunch
and Masa yg ditunggu-tunggu pun tiba,
pergi ladang parent naguib,
iols sgt teruja tgk segala haiwan2 di situ,
kecuali Mak aYAM lah, dah biasa tgk!
and saya jathu hati dgn Orkid,
seekor anak kambing yg sgt comel dan comel, comel sgt,
kalah kecomelan Sheepon Aidil,
opssss, jgn marah!
Sebelum weols bagi Kambing makan,
weols melantak lah rambutan dulu....
sambil borak2 and jealouskan si parrot tu,
huhuhu....
bagi kambing makan is not an easy job,
especially iols yg kurus alah2 tiang lampu ni,
berat ok guni2 rumput yg telah di 'blender' tu,
kalo i kerja sebulan kat situ,
harus muscular badan aku jadinya...
and bila time makan jah,
kambing2 ni terus mengembek-ngembek,
dan 'embekkan' orkid jugak yg paling comel dan seksi....
hahahaha....
Agak2 mcm dah nak mlm tu,
weols pun mandilah,
nak ronggeng kat bandar hilir pulak!
so
malam tu naguib bawa ronda2 melaka,
jadi tourist guide kan,
seronoklah MAk AyaAM tu!
stop pertama,
Dataran Pahlawan yg vogue tu,
naguib kata biasa jah,
tapi i rasa mcm vogue jah
huhuhu,
dah puas jln2, kita org ke mahkota parade pulak,
cross the road jah!
dah ronda2, ronda2, romda2
kita org pun bergegas mcm pondan
ke Menara berputar Taming sari...
Naguib, video harus upload kat blog ni!
huhuhu....
weols semua sgt excited naik benda tu,
seronok tau uols sambil mendengar alunan lagu seri Mersing,
kalo tak cakap sapa nyanyi pun, mesti uols semua boleh agak kan?
so, after tu terus ke Melaka central utk beli tiket
and ambil kak Anis sekali...
sampai sana around pkl 10, and haruslah
semua counter dah tutup kan!
so kita org melanggok lah kat situ sementara menunggu ketibaan kak Anis
Bila dah sampai, weols terus lah menuju satu tempat
utk mengisi perut kami yg lapar ni...
dah makan,
terus ke ladang semula and ambil parent naguib,
and menuju ke satu tempat lagi,
yeay boleh tido,
mata mcm dah kena gam dah sebenarnya,
huhuhu....
sampai2, basuh2 apa yg patut solat and tido!
Keesokannya, bangun lebih kurang pkl 9.00 gitu,
and lepas tu weols semua pergi breakfast,
then ke Melake central,
nak cari tiket nak balik petang tue,
and yg paling best,
sampai2 jah,
all today's ticket is sold out,
boleh,
kalah tiket wayang tau!
then straight to LADANG balik....
so, 2nd day kat ladang ni weols bagi makan kat anak2 Naguib,
dan sepupu sepapat dia org....
and hari mcm relaks sikit,
tapi hari nilah weols beraksi dgn payung,
petani moden katanya and
kecantikan hak milik setiap insan,
haruslah weols jaga....
akan disambung.....

Friday, July 18, 2008

Alhamdulillah...


Alhamdulillah...
i pass my semester 4 exam,
eventhough i only managed to get B-, but i passed

B- is not so great,
hence i have too work very2 hard for my final semester(ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!)

for the time being,
my schedule is very weird and busy...
this evening i'll have dance preactice and
i'll be going to Melaka tomorrow to Naguib's house for over the weekend,
and plus i still haven't even start writing my report and i've to submit it on Monday...

then on Tuesday,
i'll be going back to JB and will be right back in Kl on the following saturday,
and in JB i have to do my costume for the play on 1 August.

after that,
i'll be in KL for 2 weeks of rotation,
and then going back to JB again for GP posting in Kg Pasir for a week,
and 1 whole week for a holiday,
which all the boys are planning to go to Langkawi...
guys Langkawi, does is ring any bell?
But, i'm not sure whether i'm going or not...
it will all depends on the budget...
but, personally i think i should go, because i never been to Langkawi before,
plus........
huhuhu, sorry terBitch!

And last but not least,
i'll be starting my 5th sem, which is my last sem here,
before i say good by
to family, freinds and lovers! (bitch lagi!)
and InsyaAllah,
i'll further my study abroad,
and only Allah knows where.....

Thursday, July 17, 2008

Commitment, something hard to get...


Commitment...
1 the state or quality of being dedicated to a cause or policy. Ø a pledge or undertaking.
2 an engagement or obligation that restricts freedom of action.
(ref: concise oxford dictionary)

pada pendapat diri yang hina ini,
commitment ni memang senang nak bagi,
tapi susah nak dapat.

contohnya semalam,
ada drama practice,
dah tanya dah pada isnin hari tu,
sapa yg boleh dtg and sapa yg tidak,
and hampir kesemua kata boleh dtg...
since hampir keemua blh hadir,
tuan director pun kata dia akan buat practice dgn extra semua.

dan saya rasa korang semua boleh teka kan apa yg terjadi!
kalo uols teka tak ramai yg dtg, mmg anda bijak!
kalo yg tak dtg tu semua watak picisan tak per,
ni semua watak utama kot.
ada yg keluar lah,
ada yg lupa lah,
yg berkira pun ada...
so, tak jadi lah practice the whole play,
and kita org practice tarian jah...

tu yg tak dtg,
yg lambat mmg tok sah cakaplah,
mmg every time practice start pkl 8, 8.30 baru ada yg sampai,
tak ke tension tu!
aku tak lah kata aku bagus,
tapi agak2 lah,
aku lepas sembahyang maghrib boleh jar terus pergi.

kalo alasan nak belajar tu mmg tak leh terima
aku nak belajar jugak,
lagilah aku ada report nak kena buat,
and tak start lagi,
lepas tu esok ada test yg hari ni baru nak start buka balik lectures tu,

sepanjang hidup aku,
kalo ada apa2 events and practice,
mmg ni selalu terjadi,
so korang,
kalo aku kata org melayu susah nak bagi commitment, selfish, tak punctual
jgn lah marah pulak
sebab mmg betul
korang semua mcm tu....

and dah lah masa event ni nanti clashes dgn KLWMBC,
aku tak beli tiket lagi sebab takut tak dapat pergi,
and i'm sure yg korang tahu,
yg aku ni suka sgt tgk band especially life performance,
kalo aku boleh tak pergi event yg setahun sekali ni,
kenapa org sanggup tak dtg practice tu yg sekejap jah,
and pergi main futsal yg mmg tiap2 minggu korang akan main!
GERAM!!!!

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Buang Masa ATau Tidak...


Hari, kena pergi IMR,
korang tau tak apa tu IMR,
iols pun tak tau sebenarnya,
tapi dah pergi tau lah!
IMR tu ialah Institute of Medical Research,
sebelah GHKL jah...
dah lah bus driver tu sesat,
sesuka hati jer dia bawa weols pergi Institut Perubatan Respiratori.

Anyway,
visit ni tak compulsory pun,
tapi haruslah org2 yg rajin mcm iols ni pergi kan!
so, kat sana org kat sana explained lah mcm mana dia org buat HLA typing and PCR,
which is important in organ tranplant.

Sepatutnya,
lepas tu balik semula ke bukit jalil,
tapi iols ikut housemate iols ni pergi times square boleh!
katanya nak jalan2 jah,
sampai sana,
hmmm, jumpa lagi bebeudak imu yg baru sampai,
teruslah weols semua main bowling, 4 games lagi
hahaha...

iols pun tak tau kenapa iols main bowling..
nak kata sebab dia, tak juga...
hmmmm
apalah nak jadi....

so, uols rasa,
iols buang masa ke tak?>
especially bila ada report yg kena submit before 21 July
and a test this Friday.
Buang masa tak?

Friday, July 11, 2008

The Perfect Plot...


10 July is Naguib's birthday,
Farhat and I already planed something to surprise him,
but we just haven't finalized the date to implement our plan
and suddenly, on Tuesday Asyraf call and told me his plan,
and what a coincidence, we had been thinking about something similar,
which complement each other's idea and result as our
Perfect Plot!!!

So, Asyraf gave me Naguib's house key on Wednesday around 3.30pm,
which just in time after i came back from carefour shopping for my pudding.
I was so excited when Asyraf called me on Tuesday and made me forgot that i have drama practice that Wednesday night.
I don't want to disappoint both parties, so i went for both
drama practice for an hour and then directly to Taman Melati....

I arrived at Naguib's place around 10.15pm,
and while waiting for Farhat, suddenly i'm hungry,
so i called him and ask him to but me something to eat, huhu...
few minutes after that, i received sms from Asyraf, saying that they on their way back,
because Naguib is sleepy already....Ayam betul!
So, i forward the sms to Farhat and reply to Asyraf 'suruh bawa Naguib pusing dulu'.

Bila Farhat sampai,
apalah lagi, terus lah 'merompak' rumah tu!
So, i selerakkan lah semua kusyen, sorrokan tv, dvd player, lap top, kasut, and beg.
semua dvd ditaburkan atas lantai, kerusi meja makan di jatuhkan,
lampu disengetkan, dan majalah juga bertaburan atas lantai,
and the result was perfect,
seriously nampak mcm kena rompak,
walaupun ada juga yg nampak mcm tersusun, boleh?

Masa Farhat sampai tu,
dia suggest yg kita org ni tunggu dlm bilik,
tutup pintu and lampu, pasang lilin and ready with the cake
which Asyraf dah sorokkan.
saya sgt excited!

So, dah siap semua benda,
tinggal tunggu sms dari Asyraf jah!
Masa Asyraf sms kata dah sampai kat Taman Melati,
kita org ingat dah sampai,
so kita org buka pintu and grill,
and terus berkejaran masuk dlm bilik,
terus nyalakan lilin.
tunggu2 tak sampai2 lagi,
kita org pun pelik, and rasanya dah terdengar Naguib batuk tadi,
lilin kat kek dah mula memendek, nak padam takut tak sempat pulak nak nyalakan balik,
Then kita org decide, padam je lah dulu.

Few minutes lepas tu nyalakan balik sebab Farhat nampak kereta Ayraf,
Kita org kat dlm bilik ni sungguh excited,
tak sabar nak nyanyi lagu Happy birthday ni!
Masa Naguib masuk tu, adalah dengar suara dia sikit2..
antaranya dia kata
dia confirm dah kunci rumah sebelum keluar tadi...
lap top dah tak der...
Apa pun kita org sgt geram kat dlm tu,
dia tak buka2 pintu bilik tu,

Naguib buka pintu bilik tu dgn perlahan(takut katanya)
and
Surprise!!!!!!

hehehe....
terkezut Mak Ayam tu!
hahahaha....

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

Heart Transplant...


saya dah tak tahan lagi,
jantung saya ni asyik berkecamuk je,
blh tak kalo saya nak buat heart transplant,
saya tak nak rasa lagi,
kalo buat transplant rasa tak?


Monday, July 7, 2008

Arus...


Sungai mengalir ada arusnya,
Dari hulu ke hilir,
Dan alirannya sungguh sempurna,
Menuju hanya satu titik akhir,
Dimana ianya berpadu bersama lautan.

Manusia juga sama,
Punya arus kehidupan,
Tak kira apa bangsa dan kaum,
kita semua mempunyai hulu dan hilir yang sama,
Di jadikan oleh Tuhan yang sama,
Dan hanya kepadaNya kita akan kembali.

Sebagai Muslim,
Arus kehidupan kita telah ditetapkan Islam,
Islam memberi tata cara hidup yang sungguh sempurna,
Dan terpulang kepada kita untuk mengindah dan memvariasikannya.

Namun begitu,
Ramai di antara kita masih mahu menongkah arus,
Menentang kebaikan dan memilih keburukan,
Keburukan yang diperlihatkan seperti keindahan abadi.

Tidak dinafikan,
manusia melakukan kesilapan,
dan tidak terkecuali saya.

Kehidupan 'menongkah arus'
sememangnya indah,
tiap kali berada diarus yg betul,
pasti ada masa dan ketikanya kita melawan arus,
walaupun kita tahu itu salah,
tapi masih kita lakukan.

Kesilapan yang dilakukan,
Punyai tujuan,
untuk diperbetulkan,
untuk di insafi,
dan diakhiri dgn Taubat kepadaNya,
Taubat yang sebenar-benarnya.

Saturday, July 5, 2008

Kan SENANG....


kan senang kalo semua org dalam dunia ni jujur,
mengaku je kalo dah buat salah,
ni tak,
berlapis-lapis alasan yg di beri,
kalo nak buat novel,
kalah harry potter punya series.

tapi kita ni semua manusia biasa,
mmg tak lari dari melakukan kesilapan,
tapi,
agak2 lah kan nak buat silap tu,
kalo asyik buat jer,
bosan jugak kan?
huhuhu....

Thursday, July 3, 2008

Thursday, 3rd July 2008


If i have a camera right now,
i would capture a picture of the library,
it's not as it use to be,
pack with people studying for their exam,
but not today,
today the library is emtpy,
and there are only few students at the moment.

Sem 1 students are having their semester break,
same goes to sem 2 and sem 3 students,
and soon,
the semester 5 will be living IMU,
as today is their last exam,
and of course me,
and a bunch of my friends will be replacing them.

Thinking of that,
i must be prepared,
i must be strong,
i must be brave,
to face my mysterious future,
and where ever i will be,
i'll remember this day,
as a quite, slow moving day,
where the sun doesn't shine as bright as yesterday,
where i'm alone,
in this freezing library.

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

Hatinya Bukan Untukku...


Beratnya mata memandang,
berat lagi hati menerima,
bila melihat Dia
bermadu asmara dengannya.

Tiada kata yang mampu diucap,
hanya air mata yang terdaya mengalir,
menyambut kesedihan yang bertandang,
mengubat luka yang kian parah.

Sungguhpun ku tahu,
mengejar angin tiada gunanya,
bertepuk sebelah tangan tiada bunyinya,
namun cinta ini hadir tidak ku undang,
menusup perlahan,
menyubur hati,
berbunga jiwa,
membawa diri ke alam fantasi,
di mana bahagia mula terasa,

Apa yang datang ada perginya,
apa yang mula ada akhirnya,
dan mungkin telah tiba masanya,
untuk ku membenarkan cinta yang datang ini pergi,
pergi meninggalkan ku,
sepi keseorangan,
untuk ku menerima kenyataan,
bahawa
Hatinya Bukan Untukku...


Matahari yg Terik...


Hari ini saya perasan,
Hari sgt panas,
sinaran mentari menusuk,
tiada tertahan

teriknya matahari,
membakar,
meluntur jiwa

voteband


saya check kat voteband
event calender,
katanya klwmbc start 30 july sampai 1 august,
dan saya tak check pula kat klwmbc punya website...
and baru jer sekejap tadi tgk kat website ni,
klwmbc start on 30 july and end 3 august....
so, semuanya salah voteband!
huhuhu...
nampaknya, bolehlah saya meronggeng!

Tuesday, July 1, 2008

Maaf, saya Tak Perasan...


I want to apologize to all my friends,
especially Naguib and Farhat,
because i won't be able to join u guys for 2008 KLWMBC.

IMU will be having it Malay Cultural Week
from 28.7.08 to 1.8.08,
and the peak event will be on the last day, night.
So, i wont be able to join u guys for the final,
and i'll try to go for the national and preliminary round.

I know it's totally my fault...
and i hope my apology is accepted...
sooorrryy...