I may have just realised that I tend to write when I'm on my lowest mood and feeling sad/bad. Certainly there are explanations, among all that there's one particular reason that I always push it away even though its come to me over and over again. It's live in my conscious and subconscious mind, it's like a reminder or more like warning to myself, and yet I ignore.
It's all about love. I always fall for the wrong person with the wrong reason. When it happens, I can't help to stop thinking about them. Every single second they will appear in my mind and these images does really badly interfere with my daily live. Feeling it one thing, and need to hide it from the world is another thing! Why I can't just be a simple guy with a simple life? Why do I need to complicate my life when it's already complicated? Why do I found love in a wrong place? Why can't I just stick to The One?
I can't live my life this way. I need to stop but I just couldn't find the strength to do it. I'm sorry but i just can't continue writing as thinking of it made me sad and worse.