The Patterns...

I may have just realised that I tend to write when I'm on my lowest mood and feeling sad/bad. Certainly there are explanations, among all that there's one particular reason that I always push it away even though its come to me over and over again. It's live in my conscious and subconscious mind, it's like a reminder or more like warning to myself, and yet I ignore.

It's all about love. I always fall for the wrong person with the wrong reason. When it happens, I can't help to stop thinking about them. Every single second they will appear in my mind and these images does really badly interfere with my daily live. Feeling it one thing, and need to hide it from the world is another thing! Why I can't just be a simple guy with a simple life? Why do I need to complicate my life when it's already complicated? Why do I found love in a wrong place? Why can't I just stick to The One?

I can't live my life this way. I need to stop but I just couldn't find the strength to do it. I'm sorry but i just can't continue writing as thinking of it made me sad and worse.

Long Forgotten...

At some point in my life, writing was something that I always enjoy even though sometimes what I have written not even impressed me at all.

As time goes by, there's little time and less story for me to share with all my friends, and vice versa people are getting busy with their life as their open a new chapter of their life.

Do I still have the passion to write?

Man can never have to many dreams!

My dreams changes everytime and most of the times it's due to adaptation that I have to make according to recent event/scenario.

I used to dream to be a doctor to save people life and always thought that it's something easy to do. I know it may sound wrong, I decided to do medicine without a very clear mind. It's not about what I'm expecting from this job as a doctor, but it's more on the job expectation on me!

Every profession have their own responsibility, and each is different. With medicine, I never thought the responsibility will be this heavy and demanding. Studying medicine is hard work and I can't see my self as a doctor yet at the moment. Most doctors would agree with me but at the same time, it's the most rewarding profession at the end of the day.

Along with this hard work and challenging dream, which insyaAllah to be achieved next year, I have few others.

Doctor might not be my definite profession for life, but I think medicine is! As I mentioned earlier, I used to enjoy writing and actually I still am. But this dream have long way to go as I have never start on it yet.

...This blog is really 'dusty'!

Last updated, 27 March 2010

about 3 weeks after started my first clinical block in Burton,

and yes,

I do missed Burton! (really?? Am I crazy??).

And now, it's final 2 weeks of my third clinical block, in Leicester General Hospital,

with honesty I can't wait for summer holiday,

because I need a BREAK!

I hope habuk dah tak de dah and

my self looking forward for next update!